Resistance is useless.

The other day I took my inner child, the little Kev, out for a stroll.

I’d been reading (and agreeing) that ‘all is valid’, that all is ‘the path’, and that there’s nothing better or worse about anything we may think or feel. It’s all a matter of perspective.

But if I know this and don’t act upon it, then it remains just a pleasing theory.

And as it was I just happened to be feeling like shit. So off I went, into the night, to spend some time with Kev, with no agenda. To try and let him just feel whatever he was feeling. Without changing anything. Without analysing anything. Without judging or labelling anything. And without any shame, blame or regret.

Just listening.  Feeling.  Allowing.

We chatted about all sorts of things – about growing up – about school and preschool – about home – about family – about friends – about fear – about anxiety – and about all the feelings that have influenced me and, in part, still define me.

And as we kept on strolling the stories came up fluidly, and sometimes with surprising clarity.

I gave no advice, applied no measurement and tried strongly to just relax, and not wish anything to be anything other than that which it was.

And I allowed waves of sadness, fear, irritation, agitation, confusion, loneliness and more to arise and just be, be, be. Along with the more easily entertained feelings of love, peace and warmth. Because there really is nothing wrong with any of these feelings and, at their root level, not even any difference between them. They’re all just somatic colours, comfortable and uncomfortable, in the painting of our lives. And even those feelings of strong discomfort aren’t going to present any danger (however much they may scream to the contrary).

And (of course!) it let stuff move. And feelings flowed. Emotions arose. And things in me palpably shifted and changed. And some uncomfortable stuff eased in the process.

All the tricky bits just seemed, well, a lot less tricky to acknowledge. And I found a great deal of comfort in the process.

Funny old game.
By trying to not try and change stuff, stuff can change.
By allowing, listening and not judging, silent answers just appear.

And I know from experience that when we fight against stuff, it has a habit of flaring up more and not budging an inch. And the thoughts, labels and inner dialogue that follow just adds fuel to the internal fire, strengthening the emotional aches and pains.

I guess what we resist really does persist.

So maybe try a little bit of acceptance and allowing instead.
See if that makes a difference.

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Think Less. Feel More.

The words were clear and directive. The intent pure. The message came from another angle, a sled of granite, riding deep into conscious and unconscious mind.

The journey to heart continues. The mind a troublesome bedfellow. Always tripping you up. Repeating and replaying. Pulling you into past and future. Niggling and nagging and bullying and Just Trying To Keep You Safe. When safety is not an issue. Never was. Never will be.

The issue is one of opening. Against the grain. The learned responses of past decades being put aside. Not easy. But path is path. Follow or surrender.

Time to soften and melt. To allow the somatic flow to untie you. The realisation that all the feelings, the sensations, the emotional and energetic flows are the path to god.

Are god itself.

So think less. Feel more.

Your practice is this.

A letter to me.

Develop equanimity, accept what is, practice insight meditation every day, and you spend less time in craving, clinging, addiction, hate, depression, anger, aversion, fear etc.

And by spending less time in that, you spend more time in the good stuff. Peace, love, acceptance, trust, joy, enthusiasm etc.

The sankaras untie. The attachments release. The good stuff remains. The balance tips more and more in your favour.

And the more time you spend in the good stuff, the more time you spend transmitting good vibrations out to the universe.

And the more you transmit the good stuff, the more good stuff comes your way, is attracted to you, flows to you, sticks to you.

You spent the first 35 years of your life not really so aware.
And still everything was just fine.

You spent the last 11 years growing in awareness, alignment, presence, gratitude, patience, kindness, generosity, positive thoughts, positive words, positive actions, visualisation, yoga, meditation, health, exercise, good lifestyle, good nutrition, and feeling the good feelings and vibrations and dwelling on those (without attachment) etc.
And everything has been amazing.

Dreams have come true. Finances have improved. Travel has happened. Love has flourished. Friendships have blossomed. Fears have been walked through.
Big life changes have been embraced and achieved.

This stuff just works.

Self doubts and worries about ‘something bad happening’ are unfounded and irrelevant. But they are also allowed. Just not something to be dwelt on.

All the evidence shows that everything is perfect.
And always will be.

You will always have everything you need to handle whatever arises.
And abundance is growing and growing in every area of your life.
Always has.
Always will.

Just ‘knowing how all this works’ and your belief and actions in alignment with this process, guarantee that it will continue to work in this way.

And when it doesn’t, then yetha butha.
The reality. As it is. Not as you would like it to be.
Accept it all.

And it’s time to accept that you don’t need to know HOW stuff will play out – and you can’t know. The steps from here to the clearly visualised goals. The minutiae and detail will handle themselves. The universe has got this. And if it doesn’t play out how you would like it to or think it should, then suck it up and carry on. Abundance may well involve a journey through some debt. It’s abundance nonetheless.

Have faith and trust in the process. It is not yours to fathom or fuss over.

And don’t you worry about those around you scuppering your voyage.
They can’t.

Play your part and the universal laws can do nothing else than fulfill their role.
100% nailed on guarantee of ‘success’.

You just get on with transmitting the joy and thankfulness and pure feelings of abundance and creation. That’s your job. That’s why you’re here. To create. To experience the feelings of contrast. The human condition. The strength and frailty. The magnitude and minuscule bits and bobs of being on this plane of existence. What a gift! What a joy. To be here in this human form today, right now, breathing in and out and smelling the flowers each waking day.

You asked for this gift. You got this gift. Now live this gift.

Your eternal form will look on these chapters fondly, like holiday snaps from a sunny beach, with a brightly colored, over-sized towel and salt that glistens on your temples.

Just keep moving the pen. Writing the life you live. And the story will continue to unfold.
When you feel it, move the pen.
When you don’t feel it, move the pen.

You KNOW how all this works.
You KNOW what is right and wrong.
You KNOW what to do.

Listen to the little voice, that is growing in volume.
Listen to the god of all things.

And flow. Flow. Flow.
With the universal current.

Flow. Align. And Act.